All kidding aside life isn't always fair and it is far from easy. This journey called my life has taken me on a path that I would have never expected. I never in a million years would have thought that my life would be where it is today. And what I don't get is 14 years ago I had a wonderful life, a loving husband, a new baby and great friends and family. My marriage ended horribly, I've had numerous bad relationships, I worked hard to get somewhere all to have the stupid economy destroy everything I worked hard for. And now....I feel like all I have to show is my two beautiful children.
I really try to be that person that learns the lessons that need to be learned when something crappy happens, and use them to make myself a better person. I just don't understand how once something goes wrong....EVERYTHING goes wrong. I am tired. I am ready for amazing! ::peeks around the corner:: Guess it isn't here yet.
I want so much for my children and find that everytime I try to do better. I slip and fall a little further away from my goal. This time, we are slipping....again...further. And I swear this will not defeat me. It will not bring me down and it will make me stronger. Now, if I only knew where to start.
Optomisim is the place to start...I think. So where do I find me some of that, because I am pretty sure I am quickly becoming a pesimist and I don't like it. They say when one door closes another opens. I feel like I am Alice looking through the key hole with now way to get to what is on the other side.